July 19, 2013

I heard Infinite and Beast released new songs (others also but I’m not positive so I won’t say!). Also, Exo made a drama MV! I was going to review at least two songs/MV’s but something came up that just had me in the lowest mood the last couple of days and I was not able to review it. I leave later today to go visit my hometown in Massachusetts. I live in Georgia, so this will be a long ride!

I wanted someone to talk to about my problems that I’ve been having recently, but of course I had literally no one to talk to! But now, I’m at the point where I seriously do not care and I just want some food. I plan to eat a lot of Puerto Rican and Trinidadian food while I’m there and just forget all the crap that has been going on. I do not really want to waste time shedding tears because that won’t make things better, just make me feel worse! Anyways, I guess this is an update and I kind of feel bad for not reviewing things before I left.

2 hours later: Feeling like crap and just praying to God this trip will make me feel better. I really hope to get amnesia because this is my making my heart hurt so much. I thought I got heart broken many times already in the past but this is the first time my heart seriously hurts so bad. 내 마음이 너무 아픈데   I will most likely have internet when I’m there (duh! I can’t live without internet connection!) so I would appreciate requests!~ Also, I’m thinking about recording my reactions haha it would be funny to watch with all of my old friends and see their reaction towards Korean music!

I would keep typing but my emotions keep going from motivated super to sad!

4th of July.

If you didn’t already know, I’M AMURICAN (usa! Usa!! USa!!! USA!!!!). Happy Independence Day America! Sadly, I don’t know how many years we have been independent off the top of my head but at least I didn’t say happy 2013th Independence Day like some (actually a lot haha)  people have!

It’s very rainy in my area so mostly all parties/get-togethers are cancelled our just nobody is going out all together like my family. I was actually hoping for all my family to leave so I can have the house to myself to roam free! JUST KIDDING: I really want to play LoL (League of Legends) and my mouse is broken so I want to play on someone else’s computer or steal their mouse while they’re gone. *sob* Nobody is leaving! I woke up at 6:30AM (my sleeping schedule flipped and now I get up super early) and talked to a couple of people and my mood was just so SO bad. I went back to sleep, woke up at noon and worked out! After that I just simmered down and just read a couple of blog posts and drank many cups of tea. I was expecting my mood to be more lower than it is right now but I guess that it’s good I’m having a neutral vibe going on instead of a negative one.

I just ate some goodies my mum brought home from work and I was scrolling through YouTube watching random videos of someone I’m subscribed to and I got a rush to freaking go exercise and tone up my body! I’m too lazy and also get very anxious after eating a lot to check my weight on the scale but my ~lucky shuffling shorts~ can no longer fit me wtf as if I can put both of my legs in one side of the pants in order for this stay on my waist (or you can say hips) so I think I lost more weight but I do feel as if my stomach and thigh skin is somewhat lose and more jiggly. I’ve noticed this for a while but have been so lazy to do sit-ups or squats….I DESPISE SQUATS even though they would be so helpful I just really hate them. I automatically feeling the pain and burn when I just do one wtffff. Well I guess I’m not going to end my 4th of July with Fireworks but with a lot of sweat and soreness.

Here’s a picture of how I was for a few hours LOL. In my favorite sweater even though a lot of threads are hanging lose from washing. I sat on my bed in this big sweater, sipping tea and living on my computer as I usually do. Also, yes it is summer but my house is freezing because we never take off our AC (amen~).

Gonna pee and then workout byebye