A response

This a response I sent to yet another person always too "busy" to respond. After everyone using this as an excuse, it has became my pet peeve to hear when it's clearly obvious why that is not the reason they went days, weeks, and months to messages I sent them that they have read. They were free enough to read but busy enough not to reply.

At 16, I was able to get a job and eventually work "full time". School started, took some AP and gifted classes and was still working 25 hours a week at the minimum. Of course during my whole shifts I wasn't constantly busy. It was a nice time to reply to the messages my friend sent me. 30min break that was cut in half by manager, it was still enough time to reply to friends or tell them "sorry let's talk later! I'm at work".  I get home at 11:30 on a Monday night just to study and do my stacks of homework. "Studying I'll reply later". Sent each of my friends a message before going to bed because it only takes .5 seconds to write and send. You and I different. Every second of each 24 hour day, I wasn't consistently doing something. I'm thoughtful whereas you are not. This is my point. I cannot have an expectation of others because we are all different BUT there is a limit. Just explaining it instead of ignoring a message is more helpful to me which I think you would try to respect if you recommended me as a friend. But I have removed any expectations or any thoughts of you putting effort into doing something I believe is so simple so I won't get attatched to the idea and causing my own damn self to get hurt. But I will always be here. I will reply when taking a shit because my hands are free and I will reply when at the gym because it takes only a couple seconds to slow down and reply. 

Hmm..update?

Haven't updated in a long time, but things are still the same as if my life is a song put on repeat. Right now, and as usual, I'm struggling with a certain situation. It sucks so bad and it's scary how this can determine whether or not I'm happy. It's my fault for putting myself in this situation but it really hurts to much. Hopefully I'll get through this and actually blog an interesting/positive post.