B.A.P- Stop It

I heard that B.A.P was having a comeback but I never saw any teasers on my youtube’s dash (but I did see gifs on tumblr –,-)But today, it was on the first page and I was actually very excited!! (bap is one of my favorite groups ^^)

I was expecting…..something more hardcore haha. I didn’t shoot it down though! I continued to listen and started to spazz sending a million texts to my bestfriend. It was a very cute song and the video was also cute~ After a while the theme of the MV started to confuse me but I just went along because after a while I thought I caught on. Basically when he got hit by the car, he died and when he goes into the house with the girl, she reveals to him that she knew he was there following her. But then she tugs at his ‘tail’….and I’m just like ‘wuuhtt’ but not complaining since I’m enjoying the song.

Reading from a top comment on YouTube, the MV is about Bang turning into a devil torturing every boy that flirts with the girl that he got  lovestruck by. When they both walk into her house, she reveals that she is an angel and sets him free from being a devil. Weird and a different storyline haha I would have never guessed that. The lyrics (read here) don’t seem to match with the MV but that’s not a big deal since many people just dance around for their MVs. The lyrics are so simple and based on typical boyfriend and girlfriend situations. The lyrics are more like a boyfriend being sad and desperate for his girlfriend to forgive him and understand how he thinks of the situation. But if you understand Korean or just didn’t look up the English lyrics, you would be like “WOW WHAT AN AMAZING SONG”, “THIS SONG IS SO CUTE OMG”. But when you read the lyrics you don’t think it’s cute anymore haha (that just happened to me because I read it about 5mins ago). That is okay though because I still blast out and scream the lyrics to ‘No more perfume on you’ by Teen Top~ 틴탑 HWAITING!~~ (bad me)

The best thing about this song & MV coming out is all the comments about it on Tumblr. The funniest one I seen all day

I AM SO DONE .

Blabbing

My last post was kind of serious. Sorry NOT SORRY~

Today Wednesday, two more days until Friday! WOOO.

I usually have homework everyday of the week from 5 out of my 6 classes and today….I have homework from all 6 classes. Not even going to complain since it’s not even a lot. It actually disappoints me that my teachers don’t give me a lot of homework to be honest. They expect us to study everyday for at least 30 minutes but that can’t really happen because I am the biggest procrastinator ok. Wow me writing this post is procrastination isn’t it? Hahaha moving on~~~

So far my week hasn’t been bad but it could’ve been better. I just noticed that a girl hates me too. I don’t get why though. I’m nice to everyone and polite. I don’t even know her name so that should be proof that I don’t know her aka I never talked bad about her. She just basically hates me for existing! Ya I was going to a less stronger word like dislike, but she overreacts so that makes me guess she really does hate me LOL. This girl must have some mental issues because she literally goes out her way to give me attitude (it looks that way to me) when we don’t even know each other... I hope one day in the future, she looks bad and feels embarrassed for how stupid she was acting. Yesterday I sat down and thought of reasons why she would hate me but I couldn’t think of none because there is NONE. ZERO. Idk man, I’m just quiet and do my work. LOL IS THIS A PRANK? WHEN IS ASHTON KUTCHER POP OUT TELLING ME I GOT PUNK’D?!!!

Anyways, doing something that makes me super happy: Blogging and listening to trance. Blogger and Tumblr. huahahah. Some people are upset when they hear Tumblr users call themselves bloggers and say they are blogging. Excuse you, technically I am blogging okay. ~*PICTURE BLOG*~ I remember when everyone heard about Tumblr and they all created accounts but look at their accounts now, all deserted. ugh Ugh UGH, you will never understand anything about Tumblr unless you’re a legit Tumblr user okay (like me bwahaha) I felt as if I went through phases with tumblr (ex:emo, goth, kawaii etc). First I reblogged a lot of pictures and posts on post-hard core bands (EMBARASSING!) then I went to kawaii haha. christinetofu was my favorite blog at the time ugh and she the cutest dashthemes and it made me feel 10x more kawaii. THEN FINALLY, THE LAST STOP….SOUTH KOREA. At the time I was going through all these phases, I did listen to a lot of kpop and went hardcore on my drama watching but it didn’t suck all the way in yet. Then one day..I saw some Korean idols on my dashboard and said, “I KNOW WHO THIS ISSSSS (; *reblog*” and that kept happening. And then eventually my blog became just (mainly) Korean fashion~ I was never one of those type of people who wanted promos or ask for people to follow me back because personally, if I don’t like what you blog then I don’t want it all over my dashboard aka I wouldn’t follow you haha.

Back to South Korea though.

Sighsighsighsighsigh. Why can I not be fluent in Korean already?!! Then someone on my dash was talking about NSLI Korea WAAAA but I doubt I would be able to figure out how to apply on time and for some reason, I don’t really try things like this because I feel as if I won’t be one of the people to be picked sigh. It is now 6:46PM so I will begin my homework and stop sobbing.

RIP Amanda Todd

Just read an article about Amanda Todd  here

I am angry and tears about to fall down my cheeks. This is disgusting. How can you be that evil? How are you even human??

A lot of young people do not realize how precious life is and how much you can mess it up with one little mood. They live in the moment acting as if torturing this girl is cool and fun. Immature pricks.

The whole world is now empathizing about her death. Everyone on Facebook writing how bullying should stop and how much they cared that this girl died. The majority of these people writing these statuses ARE bullies. HYPOCRITES. And will you even remember who Amanda is tomorrow? She deserved to live. It wasn’t her time to leave the world and I bet you she didn’t want to leave but she had no choice..

Her options were very limited and death would end the pain soon. She tried to make things better by avoiding these triggering situations but they just followed her. She moved!! And you still had the nerve to follow her and torture her. Why?? I don’t think she deserved it. I don’t think anyone deserves to be put through that. She probably felt as if she was being pushed into a corner and no escape. If she had at least one person by her side, she could've survived. Is she poisonous? A disease? How could all her friends leave her over a petty situation like this? I do not understand. It seems as if they weren’t as close to her or her real friends because they left her side. I hope God understands her and takes her in making her feel loved because I think that was what she really wanted. I want to say a million bad words to these inhumane people but that would make me just as bad as them. “You will never understand until it happens to you”. None of the people that knew her didn’t understand her therefore she never really had empathy while she was alive, struggling. I wish someone could’ve helped her. It really breaks my heart to hear about someone (ANYONE) committing suicide. Feeling suicidal feels….horrible. Crying so much to the point you can’t even breathe and to the point your eyes are blurred from all the tears in it. You feel so alone. You wish you could do something about the situation but you can’t and knowing that makes you cry more than before. You try your best not to self harm and you just give in which eventually makes you feel worthless. Bullies laugh, act as if they don’t care that they are putting the victim of their actions in so much pain. What would it take to make these people finally open their eyes? This beautiful girl is dead. Gone. She will never come back to life and get to actually experience life. And to be honest, I’m not going to promote and lecture about calling a suicide hotline when you’re suicidal. Who would actually think about calling during that moment? Also what can those people do to make the person change their minds? Say ‘it’s not worth it’ and typical crap like that? OH. Will you call my parents too? Good job, make things 10x worse. The only person who can stop you during that moment is YOURSELF. I really hope that I won't hear about another suicide on the news. But how could I expect that in a world full of heartless people? Sigh

PS: She was very beautiful

I hope your soul actually does rest in peace.

Waaa~

Last year, I didn’t care about what day of the week it was. Half of the time I didn’t know what day it was! But now that I’m back in school, I’m the happiest walking home Friday afternoons. My walk home today I was more happy because it’s a 3-day weekend! :D

So many tests and studying made me so exhausted this week. Even though I will have to study a lot over the weekend (LOL)..I feel as if I will go back to school feeling refreshed.

Relaxing, listening to k-indie & drinking tea~

My favorite tea at the moment!

Yeah, this is me right now. Everything feels perfect. I will capture this moment in my mind okay okay and save it for later when I complain about life.

Things that have made me happy over these past few weeks? Hmmm….Well of course hearing about Xiaxue being pregnant!! I cried okay I was so happy. I do not care what anyone says, she will be one the best moms to exist. So many people sending her hate because they are honestly stupid. Just because she’s very blunt and honest, that means she will be a bad mother? Just because she sticks up for herself and doesn’t let people who bully/harass her get away with it, that means she will be a bad mother? Even though most of us think we know everything about someone via internet, guess what! YOU DON’T. Xiaxue will be the cutest mother alive and people hating on her for that. WOW WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH A CHILD HAVING A CUTE MOMMY. One last thing I would like to say about this is during pregnancy, mothers get this bond with their baby in their womb because that is their baby, child, their soon-to-be everything. It’s sickening how people could even think she would do anything to harm her OWN child.

Wow I was talking about what made me happy but that situation also irritated me. ~Moving on~

What would I do without my bestfriend??? Would I even be alive right now? How would my future have turned out if I didn’t meet her? We both made a big differences in each other’s life (of course in a good way). All the things we’ve been through together, brought us very close together. I’m so grateful to have a wonderful friend like her and basically everyday, she makes me laugh or puts a smile on my face. If it’s a bad day, she will try her best to cheer me up. Even though I’m mean and tell her to shut up, I am thankful towards her hahaha but technically she makes me feel better because after I tell her to shut up, I literally burst out into a laugh! It’s nice to know someone actually cares about me. She’s so perfect and sometimes I feel as if I don’t deserve to have her as my best friend. But I know she loves me and she will always be my bizotch for life ♥

People who don’t know us suspect that we are gay (seriously LOL) and sometimes shocked or jealous that a friendship like ours exist. WE ARE THE DEFINITION OF PERFECT BFFLZ GUISE~

The last thing that made me happy? My crush~ To be honest, he probably doesn’t even know I exist LOL. I don’t mind though because just seeing his face from the corner of my eye makes me happy. If anyone knew this, they would probably think of this as really depressing haha. He’s in none of my classes and if  I’m lucky, I get to see him twice in the hallway. I am not dumb, I know that he’s way out of my league and have 0 chances with him. ha ha ha. I really don’t have much to offer to someone in a relationship though. Love & company is all I can provide but sometimes that is not enough. Also, I’m the biggest weirdo so yeah… Anyways, when I look at him (even from my little glances) I can tell what type of personality he has and I just adore it very much and he has the cutest face alive. Even if I stop liking him, I will still adore him. Having a crush on a person is so cute okay and I think I enjoy it without being all dreadful because I’m not expecting anything in return from him.

Ahh I feel full~ But I’m also freezing

bye.