It’s 4:22AM and I am just watching a bunch of videos I used to watch at the beginning of this year and I feel as if this brings me back to that time. At first it feels nice bringing back good feelings and memories and then I remembered how healthy I was. Every single day I worked out a minimum of 45 minutes! I drank a lot of water and tea but now all I drink is orange juice (my mom says it’s not all that healthy and I agree). I am starting to feel down thinking about how I’ve been eating a lot of fattening, unhealthy food. For the past 5 weeks, I’ve been eating ramen at least 3 times a week. Gross! I personally think that I were slimmer, that I would look better. I want to be skinnier but I eat like a fat pig..smart, right?! I just keep saying ‘waaaa’ over and over to myself because if anyone could see how much I’ve been eating these past few weeks, you would be saying the same thing. I think it’s complete crap to track how many calories I eat a day so no I’m not going to that. I need to stop eating less of bad food/drinks and start working out again!
My height is 5’5.5 and my normal weight is around 135lbs. My highest weight would usually be around 145. People say I shouldn’t listen to average weight for my height because my bone structure is different so I goggled it~
Small Frame : 117-130
Medium Frame : 127-141
Large Frame : 137-155
I am medium and my average weight is 135….6lbs away from the borderline waa. People might say my goal weights are too extreme but do I care? No because it’s my body and I set these goal weights.
130>125>120>115>110>105
YES, I WANT TO BE 105lbs! If I end up stopping at 115lbs though, I wouldn’t mind. Something I fear about planning to lose all this weight is that I have a weird body type. My upper body is tiny, but my butt and thighs are what that is big. IF I get to 105lbs, my lower body would look fine but what about my upper body? UGGGH. But why am I stressing over it when I’m nowhere close to my GW yet.
ha..ah ha.. Yeah let me not worry yet
I wrote this around 4 in the morning but got too distracted to even finish my blabbling about my health/weight wow. Today I went on a long walk and I feel awesome! Ahh~ I am getting back there little by little.
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