02.21.13

 

I feel so down and stupid sometimes when i hear my friends/classmates share their grades or when they are just incredibly awesome at doing schoolwork.

Today in Language Arts, this girl finished  her paper in less than 15 minutes of class. HOWW. And then as usual, my other classmate that is literally perfect, did very well on her paper too. I will honestly admit that I could be like them but only if I make more time for studying aka gtfo the internet which i think won't happen?? I've put on a website blocker a couple of times and that did help with my grades but I feel as if I have to want to click the block button  badly or I won't click it at all. Like right now you would expect me to click it, right? No. I do not feel like it and I should be smacked for thinking that way. I screwed up big time this year. I blabbed about how I was going to make A's during the summer but look at me barely  passing and with only one impressive grade. I cannot point fingers at anyone or anything but myself.  This is my fault for being a computer freak and not knowing when and when not to use the computer. Hopefully over the summer me and the friends I made this year get closer and be study buddies heheheheee..

I can definitely make a change before school ends and bring my grades up so I will keep going! I guess I see these awesome classmates as role models and motivations to who I want to be when it comes to education. I will now go watch a Korean movie though! Haha, how horrible I sound!! But it’s okay since the only think I need to worry about is catching up in LA (which I will do in about 2 hours) and my Math quiz…I felt confident about my math quiz but now I really don’t because I remembered that we’ve been doing problems for warm-ups that has been my hardest thing to learn since 7th grade. Hopefully that’s not on the quiz OR it be a multiple choice quiz with very friendly answer choices but then I remembered that it won’t be multiple choice since it’s plotting –sigh-

Also, everything is so expensive! It sucks how I am under the age of 18 and have to rely on my mom to pay for the things I want/need which sucks because sometimes she doesn’t have the money or simply doesn’t want to put her money into whatever object/situation I ask her to put her money towards. It sucks very much and even though nobody wants to work, including me, I really need to! Soccer, hair, clothing, food etc..Days like this I wish that out of the blue, my family wins the lottery. My hands are cramping (write so many notes today) and I do not want to think about this anymore so I will watch a Korean movie as I said I was going to do.

About The Blogger~

A long time ago I decided when I reach 1,000 views, I will do a post about me because during that time, I scrolled through a lot of blogs and noticed their first post was sort of an about me when my first post said ‘shalalalala!’ haha.

Name: _____ _____

Nickname: Angel

Age: 16

Birthday: February 11th (021197)

Nationality: Trinidadian-American

Hobbies: Blogging, Soccer, Watching Korean Dramas

Music: k-indie, k-ballad, indie, trance, techno, house music (music genres I listen to on daily basis)

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   I am a normal American teenager with anxiety disorders who loves their computer more than life and has odd yet interesting interests.

I was also going to post a picture of myself on this post but that is personally passing the limits that I have with myself at this moment. Haha I never take pictures so it would just be my face blocked or an older photo from a couple months back when I guess I was happy enough to take tons of stupid pictures. I also didn’t include my real name since that really isn’t necessary if you think about it and even people I see in real life make me cringe when they say my real name. Maybe one day more and more people will enjoy my blog (maybe when I’m more happier and less self-conscience) and they will call me by my url *O* I actually like my url to be honest..it sounds cute and reminds me of Lily but when you say it out loud it sounds sort of asian LOL I found this name through a baby name website that also included international names..But you know since I’m on my computer I can Google it haha (duh)

It’s Chinese!

You know… this is actually cool and exciting. This make me want to visit my url one day..but then it doesn’t when I clicked on google image wtfffff –.-  But I also learned it was the name of a Han Dynasty general which is also pretty cool.

I was in middle of a drama before I started typing lol bye.

Teen Top- I Wanna Love// 틴탑-사랑하고 싶어 (AUDIO)

2nd post of tonight because Teen Top- I Wanna Love// 틴탑-사랑하고 싶어 (AUDIO) was released!! Teen Top forever will be my favorite k-pop group and tears filled my eyes when I saw the link to the audio. I know lots of Teen Top fans will be searching about this song til the MV releases so here pretty angels, I will put your hard at rest.

New songs have been releasing on school days so have not been reviewing newest songs that came out this week (B.A.P and NU’EST) and I will definitely be reviewing this song when the MV comes out. 

Update (3.8.13): Did not review any songs because of so much tests and studying to do. ahjfkhgjkg

Happy Valentine’s Day!

This is the best Valentine’s day that I can remember and yes I enjoyed today even though I’m single! I am a high schooler so I saw a lot of girls walking around school with red bags with balloons and of course, flowers in their hand. I do not know what time I arrive at school but my bus gets here at 6:20AM so I am usually sleepy and grumpy in the mornings but the things I saw this morning made it hard for me to sleep because I was laughing so hard.

I saw this girl sniffing a flower (it wasn’t even a rose!) and glaring at it with a big smile on her face as if it was the best thing it happened to her. When I got to the entrance of my classroom, I couldn’t help but burst out in laughter because I basically saw 5 others girls doing similar things during my walk to class. The last romantic Valentine’s day that I had was all the way back in 5th grade! My boyfriend at the time bought me this extremely cute teddy bear but was too shy to give it to me so he gave it to friend and she came running with it screaming ‘awee!’. I thought it was nice and sweet of him but at the same time I was also thought why the heck did he give me this! It was awkward and I really didn’t know what to do or say. I am a girl so of course I like when my boyfriend (when I have one) spoils me and tries to be sweet but I don’t really think chocolates and stuff like that are necessary especially on Valentine’s Day. It’s as if they only do it because they have to because of this holiday. They wouldn’t do it on any other day/holiday so seems pretty pointless to me. People may think I’m rude or just a tomboy but I’m neither of those! I don’t know, but being and doing constantly cheesy stuff all the time is unnecessary okay.

Now that you see my point of view on this holiday, you may think I’m weird/confusing if I told you that Valentine’s Day was always one of my favorite holidays. Everything is decorated in pink and red and then you get lots of candy! I don’t like how spooky and dark Halloween is and I always gotten more candy on Valentine’s Day rather than Halloween (crazy, right?). Last year was the only year during my teen years (so far) that I have been single around this time. Even though I had boyfriends, we told each other ‘Happy Valentine’s Day’ and said we loved each other. Now that I think about it, it’s somewhat a holiday to celebrate you and your other half being together and being grateful towards each other. I sound stupid now but this is the first time I ever thought about it this way. Hahaha//

I will just continue talking about my day. As I said, I do get a lot of candy of this holiday and I am one of those people who do get hyper off of candy and during 7th period, everything just became extremely funny to me. Simple noises or exaggerations of words made me burst out into laughter that lasted up to 10 minutes. Do you know how when you see someone else laughing, you can’t help but laugh too? My friend who sits beside me in class laughed probably the whole class period with me because unlike her, it is hard for me to stay quiet when laughing. She was literally in tears and I didn’t even know until she turned my directions and it was funny that my laughing made her laugh so hard to the point she was in tears. I never smiled or laughed this much (and enjoyed it) on Valentine’s Day and that’s why this was the best Valentine’s Day for me.

I actually started eating healthy and cutting back but I couldn’t resist or reject the candy given to me. I feel bad because I had done a really nice workout that had my inner thighs sore (my trouble spot!). Oh well though, right? There’s always tomorrow to do better and workout :D

My fridge is only full of healthy stuff so I felt like a hypocrite while eating when I got home –.-

Before I go, I want to show you my new hair color! I had the front dyed a honey blonde but re-dyed it and some extra sections of my hair so I have about 4 different shades of color in my hair and I actually like it!

Random kawaii octopus because not liking how my mouth and chin looking lately 0.0

나에게 생일 축하 해!!// Happy Birthday To Me!!

Today is my 16th Birthday! Yay ^-^

It’s also my little sister’s birthday (yes really). Did not do much but hang with the family and appreciate life and I guess that’s what I’m for this birthday: My life and family.

It’s now 10:43PM and I’m extremely tired but will go to sleep after finishing this movie ^^

School 2013 // 학교 2013

I recently watched the drama ‘School 2013’

Main Characters in the drama:

Jung In Jae (Jang Nara)

Kang Se Chan (Choi Daniel)

Go Nam Soon (Lee Jong Suk)

Park Heung Soo (Kim Woo Bin)

This drama has to do with school and personal problems. Jung In Jae is first year teacher at Victory High school. She is now told that she will be the homeroom teacher of classroom 2 which is full bad students. Kang Se Chan is a private instructor but because he is trying to make rumors about him settle down, he decides to work at the Victory School for 6 months.  Go Nam Soon is a student at Victory High School. He is usually quiet and because of his size, is aimed at for bullying. Park Heung Soo comes later in the story, okay?

Go Nam Soon is extremely quiet during school. During lessons, he looks out the window or puts his head down and sleeps. This is probably the reason why he looks easy to bully. No matter how many times he is punched or forced to give up his lunch money, he doesn’t hit back. I always wondered why. In Jae cares about all students. Despite them disrespecting her, she keeps her chin up and tries to help each and everyone of them no matter whether it’s her way of teaching or being someone there for them to talk to. Se Chan seems not to care about the children and just there to teach them the ways to pass the SAT. The students who want to learn, he moves to the front and the students who don’t care and want to sleep, he puts them to the back. Something interesting though is that In Jae and Se Chan are both the homeroom teachers of class 2. Because they are so opposite, they tend to bump heads a lot. Now finally about Park Heung Soo! His reputation is being a gangster. After all the problems he has faced, he decides he wants to go to graduate quietly but of course, the bullies of Victory High School won’t let that happen. As they try to bully Heung Soo, Nam Soon is always there to project him. This starts to bring lots of questions about the relationship between Heung Soo and Nam Soon. This is where they eventually find out who Nam Soon used to be in the past and why he always tries to act as Heung Soo’s guardian. Actually, they used to be best of friends but because Nam Soon did something that changed Heung Soo’s dream future, Heung Soo hates Nam Soon and Nam Soon is deeply sorry and scarred because of this incident. He tries so hard to make up for what he has done but he knows nothing will but because of many disciplinary incidents happening that included them both in some sort of way, they have a lot of time where they are forced to socialize which helps them get to the bottom of the real situation. There is not much I can say about In Jae. There are many interesting situations going on with the students of class 2 which she tries to help with. Sometimes it backfires on her but in the end, it helps her to grow and understand the concepts of being a teacher. And despite how many times Se Chan tries not to to care about the students of class 2 and their situations, sometimes he secretly shows that he does care for them. But because of a incident that occurred between him and student in past when he was a teacher, it takes a very long time for him to open but in the end he does. He starts to let go of the past with the help of the students of class 2 and In Jae.

This drama is extremely good and for some reason I feel as if I learned something from this drama. It has a lot of situations in this drama that shows you the life of Korean students and teachers and what obstacles they go through. I would definitely suggest this drama for someone to watch especially if you like dramas that are more on the serious side rather than comedic.

I would rate this drama 3.5/5

I like how you do feel as if you learned something from this drama and I also like how it had a lot mini personal stories in it but I guess I didn’t really enjoy it for the drama itself but for the actors especially for Lee Jong Sok and Kim Woo Bin. I’m a big fan of (esp. Kim Woo Bin!) their modeling so a lot of the time I was glazing over their looks. That may not be a big deal but I personally it’s as if I only searched all over town to find this drama just because the two of them. I wonder if other girls around my age only came to watch the drama because of them also. Some situations in my opinion, I think were too overdone. Practically everyday, these men were in trouble or about to get kicked out of school. There were other ways you could’ve brought these boys together other than being in trouble or petty incidents which they could’ve been handled with just a conference with a teacher (just keep in mind my views of these incidents may be different from a Korean’s views because I’m an American and tend an American school). Other than these 2 cons, I really liked watching drama and I would still suggest this drama to be watched to others.

If anyone has read this review and would like me to review other dramas, please comment below which drama and I will do so.

Gloomy thoughts.

another day that I feel blank.

Thinking, typing and backspacing with nothing releasing through my mouth. I am not sad nor am I happy.  I’m tired physically and mentally. I’ve caught on before I went downhill. Me catching myself before falling doesn’t matter since there won’t be anyone to lift me up before I fall. People will pick up my shatters but not because they care for me but because they feel bad for me. When will this end? Will there ever be a day where someone will actually stay by my side? I want to experience pure happiness just one more time in my life. I’m tired of feeling stuffy and lonely.

What if I’m like this the rest of my teenage years? It’s unfair. Why can’t I have a bite of joy but everyone else can?! Even the ones who don’t deserve it! But I guess this is life, right? You cannot change your destiny no matter how many times you try to. You are born and forced to live a life that you were destined to have. You won’t know why you were chosen to go down this path but one day you will. I need to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and that destiny is a beautiful word. I bet it doesn’t have a sad ending. No matter how many times I fall and shatter, I must stick myself back together if there is no one to do it for me and keep it moving. I must see the ending to this melodrama. You can’t see the ending when your dead or gloomy so just wait for the possibly happy ending.