속눈썹

My summer vacation started May 23rd and to be honest, I have not done anything as exciting so far! Tumblr, shuffling, YouTube,  and listening to massive amounts to music. I planned on hanging out with my friends, working and studying Korean but..my main friend I would hang out with is grounded, I failed my job application (by 2 points btw) and actually been extremely lazy to take notes so haven’t put much effort in studying Korean but I know eventually I’ll get around to it.

Actually, the more it becomes summer, the more I hate it and complain that I wish it was cold outside. I wish the weather would stay the same when at the time where the horizon goes down. My hair is naturally curly and I don’t know how it will work out this summer because I no longer chemically straighten my hair therefore this will be somewhat new to me. Really wish I could trade hair types with a girl with straight hair who constantly complains and wishes she had curly hair tsk =.=

Here are various pictures of my eyelashes with LashBlast’s Crush Clumper mascara after I watched a review that said it made her lashes fall which is something  I somewhat look for in a mascara since mine are curled to the point I personally don’t think they look long (unless you look from the side)

Yeah, I can slightly agree with her but not fully *sigh*

**Before I end this post, this is the first time I seriously joined a giveaway. I never tried much in the past because highly doubt I would be a winner but the prizes are actually awesome in this giveaway so I really do hope I can win! I’ve followed this girl forever on Tumblr and recently came across her blog which I thought I followed already but followed again just in case ok. Click here to view her Tumblr and click here to view her Blogspot. I get but-loads of views on my blog everyday (even though nobody follows me *ahem*) so everyone reading this also go join the giveaway also if you like!

Feeling quite tired probably going to watch this drama I started until I fall asleep. I don’t have anything cool to say so here’s a heart:

Summer time, SUMMA TIME SADNESS

This week has been really stressful for me because it was the last week of school we were able to boost up our grades and turn in stuff before finals next week where we just come to take our finals Monday-Wednesday and go home. Well I don’t know about other kids, I stay be on my grades jock as in I check it everyday and well, my grade was horribly low in math and I really couldn’t comprehend that and she gave us projects that most of us couldn’t understand and said we couldn’t turn it in a day late so I got even more frustrated and seriously wanted to give up on life because there was absolutely no hope for me with a freaking 59. YES A 59!  She handed out our progress reports on Friday where  I guess she finally put the last of our grades in and I didn’t even want to look at mine and I just folded it but everyone was talking about their grades so I just had the urge to open it and see what I was missing and the bottom said 67…..67!! I know I slacked off this year so I wasn’t expecting me to have spectacular grades at all but I really didn’t understand how my grade could be low when I only didn’t turn in about 3 home works in the whole semester. Also, not trying to speak badly of my math teacher that I had second semester but I didn’t learn as well from her compared to my first semester math teacher. Last year I didn’t learn anything math related at all except Pythagorean Theorem and halfway learned slopes for my retake for the government test fml. Anyways, I passed first semester with a 85% like thank you teacher, honestly all props to you for breaking it down so well to us fellow students. My second semester math teacher just so fast and doesn’t really go in depth as you would want because she think ‘this is sooo easy! it’s like a review for you guys!’. Like excuse you no it’s not a review for me okay! What makes it more hard, I don’t really talk to anyone in math class and when I do, they act all annoyed when I ask for help. When I ask my friends for help in other classes they go, ‘Are you in honors or something????’ like no I’m in CP how embarrassing >.>

My finals schedule for next week:

Monday : Math and Health

Tuesday: Biology and History

Wednesday: Guided Study and Language Arts

My friends are thinking about chilling on Wednesday morning instead of going to guided study because really, you’re going to be in there for 2 hours doing nothing. I said I would tag along but now I’m thinking, I want to sleep in tsk. Tonight I will start studying crazy for math and continue to do so on Sunday. Health is very basic and simple so I won’t really study in depth for that.

I feel like I’m the only person who wasn’t really excited for summer at first. At the end of the year is when I started getting open and enjoying my freshman year. But then I remember that I would spend all that time that I would spend in school at work, studying Korean, hanging with my friends and getting fit!  I’ve been stuffing my face all day today fml probably going to workout with my sister in a few now that I remembered how much I ate.

Took a bunch of  stupid pictures yesterday because after I found out my math grade I was just extremely happy for the rest of the day. Wow, why is my mouth open (this is why I deleted it off this post hahaahahaHAHA..) Instead of seeing my retarded face, look at my outfit and even though you can’t see it, my band-aid on my big toe. My friend freaking stepped off my foot taking off like 47% of my toenail argh >:/

FML

So done with life at this moment. School School School School. I’m failing math really bad right now and at this moment, rather die than have a failing grade at the end of the year. I’m actually feeling really suicidal right now. We have a project that is supposed to help with our grade and I don’t get none of this. YES, I looked back in my notes and YES, I asked my useless classmates for help. I can’t even ask the  teacher for help because she sees this as 2+2, basic math, therefore she won’t answer it or help. How can I make it clear enough that I only to a school campus for teachers and their extra help. Wow, thanks teachers! So helpful……IN MAKING ME WANT TO DIE. MY LA teacher jokes that I will be a failure because of how I do nothing. I’m sorry it takes me a while to unfold and process all of your work without having a mental breakdown. Like I’m actually pissed off how you’re here for the teachers help and they are useless and also that throughout the whole year, your teacher hasn’t realized what are your weaknesses when it comes to assignments. Feeling so sad about turning all my assignments in late well sorry not sorry (had to say it, okay!). I can’t even like try to explain to them that I will eventually spazz out one of these days and just kill myself on the spot because look how crazy that sounds. I don’t even know what to do. I just hate school.