B.A.P–Coffee Shop

June 27, 2013 BAP released their song “Coffee Shop”

If you are a fan or already know of B.A.P, you know this isn’t their style of music they usually put out. They came off as gangster-like fashion sense and also they were a Hip-Hop group. When I saw the teaser for this song, I thought it was interesting. There wasn’t much but an instrumental playing so I couldn’t hardcore judge them off of that and of course wait until the song and MV were released.

I won’t lie, I haven’t been keeping up with K-pop lately since it’s not my favorite but I do follow a girl on Twitter who lives and breathes K-pop and she’s also a big B.A.P fan with Zelo as her bias. My twitter was full of her tweets of her reactions so of course I had to see it! I honestly liked it! Whoever was their stylist for there clothing in this music video, I want to give them a hi5 EXCEPT Zico  with socks and sandals  on.

Why would you do that?? His outfit is so nice if you just look from knees and above.

Out of everyone, Bang got me mesmerized the most from their looks. Is it that haircut? His sleek rapping? That tucked in shirt??? Maybe all those reasons I just said..Also did anyone also notice he went from suave to GD style in 2.5 seconds and pulled it off so nicely?

P E R F E C T I O N

vfdfjkv. I honestly got emotional with this song when Zelo….started singing. I put my cup of coffee aside and immediately started to spazz. I love this song, I love the Music Video, I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS of course, except for Zelo’s  socks and slippers going on. This song is very mellow compared the types of songs they usually make which is pro on my side since I can listen to this song anytime in any mood that I am in. This song is just really good okokok!

Ending this post with a beautiful gif of Zelo singing and putting an earphone in his ear. (source)

6.27.13

I recently went downhill, experienced a horrible and different form of anxiety attack and that was basically how my days were going until recently. I met up with someone a couple of days ago and since then, I’ve been moderately happy and in a good mood. Messaging someone first who I’m not very close with, is basically one of my phobias. If they don’t reply, or lead the conversation on they way I expected them to, I just start spazzing. not feeling so great and like right now, feeling quite depressed. I feel like I give off a bad vibe or they just don’t like me if I message them first and now it caused me to overthink! I started to like this person probably more than they like me. They have someone better to talk to, they are tired of me, I’m annoying. Basically, I’m not going to even reread this and fix mistakes or choppy thoughts because I just feel so sad right now. I found happiness and knew it wouldn’t last forever so I lived in the moment, savoring every single moment but I wasn’t expecting it to slip away this fast and this soon. OH WELL. I mean I think I might be able to get over this the next time I leave my house but I have no plans for tomorrow so it might not be a pleasant day for me.

I just made myself a cup of hazelnut iced coffee (typical) and now I’m questioning why I even let this get to me but I know I’m only questioning that because I probably like coffee more than I like people. ANYWAYS: Other than this mood swing I had earlier today, what has been going on with my life? Nothing much! Trying to get everything everything settle so I can get my schedule for work, watching Korean dramas half-ass and sleeping a lot! Something awesome is that I made a friend and a Korean tutor at the same time. One more thing I have to say before I end this post is that I lost around 10 pounds and now at the weight I used to be the heaviest at and now if I lose about 15 more pounds I’ll be at my normal weight and then I can happily lose weight after that without falling deep into depression because I’m no longer overweight (probably tbh since I’m not at my normal weight again yet) therefore I can’t really sob about being fat (thinking). The hard work is paying off!

I started this post when I was sad but now I’m just hungry and tired so I think I’m gonna eat some eggs and a smoothie! I guess this was an update by the way~

06.15.13

I wrote a post a while back and yeah it took me like 6 days to complete it because the topic just really spoiled my mood every time I talked about it. My computer seriously never crashes on me but of course, it randomly had to on the day I finished and was saving and clicking the publish button like NOOO so yeah half of my awesome thoughts were deleted *cries*.

Today my mom was so peppy and I don't understand why but she literally bought anything me and my siblings wanted today including fast food! I just wanted to say so far, I have lost 9 pounds! It's not that big of a deal but this whole time I was doubting myself to find out I've been losing weight and getting closer each day to my normal weight again! Anyways, I had some fries, one cheese burger and a vanilla milkshake from mc donalds. I ate some fries and my shake and continued with my day until around 10PM, I went for a walk with my sister and she bought me a slushie. I was exhausted because I had to take care of business this morning and then go to work at 4 and I guess I was a little too excited to go to bed that night so I knocked out when I came home from the walk with my sister and just woke up seriously feeling like crap! My stomach hurts so much and I swear I will never eat this much trash again so suddenly. I have been sleeping during the day and up during the night! I wish my schedule could stay like this but I did get a job but I don't have serious hours or anything yet since I'm new and still have to complete training via computer (heard it's dreadful!) so I'll be fine for now~

 Bought some green tea and of this brand since I was a fan of it when I used to be obsessed with sweet tea. Like who doesn't crave some cold green tea?

 

I'm not using Windows Live Writer right now so I guess my pictures might look displaced but I chilled on my back patio today and it was refreshing did even notice how freaking how it was today.

Also today I went to a local hair supply store where I went on and off since I've been living in this city and the lady must not remember my face because she gets so shocked every time I say thank you in Korean. Today she replied with, “omo…어떻게????” haha I couldn't have a long conversation with her since I did say it while my mom and sister were cashing out. I'll see her soon (of course, I love hair supply stores!) and let's see if she remembers my face this time!

6.1.13

I’m sitting in my computer chair pretzel-style, in my bra and undies sipping on some cold earl grey tea. This is actually relaxing but only this since I’m hot and sweaty from shuffling and about to take a shower anyways.

I was scrolling through Tumblr and remembering my bestfriend because I sent her 5490068590 asks since her phone is broken. It hit me all at once that this is my best friend. She knows practically everything about me and every time I make a reference, she would know. Like my other friends really don’t grip the reason when my accent turns into a Malaysian one when complaining/pissed. I don’t feel like I can fart and say ‘oOps’ in front of my other friends. Also, I don’t feel so close to any of my other friends to the point I would invite them on a family trip with me. I always felt this way but now I feel more sure that Sandra is my bffl (lmfao how cheesy >o<). Sometimes I don’t think she would mutually agree with me because she never freaking talks to me (AHEM!) but I’m 98.9% sure she does also. I won’t lie, I get clingy to my friends. I like talking to them 24/7 and it aggravates me when they go days without talking to me without telling me a reason why. Lately, I like to go a couple of days without replying to messages from my friends so I guess I can relate also. Well this is just a blog post saying how much I love my best friend Sandra even though her nickname in my book is puta right now LOL.

Here’s an old photo of me drinking tea. Adios~

PS: Also noticed it was June 1^st  wtff well doesn’t time fly