9.14.13>>9.22.13

9/14/13

I’ve been so busy between school and work which is quite sad since I haven’t even been making good grades!  I’m not going to get hard on myself about that since I do know myself and I know it’s because of something has been going on to make me feel sidetracked, and now I think I’m getting better!

I’m now starting to learn how to manage my time and somewhat put myself on a schedule haha. Also, I just started to work out again not just preparing myself for soccer but it’s just good for my health mentally and physically. Yes, I have decided not to quit soccer. A friend of mine died recently and it really felt like a wake up call to stop giving up, set goals and reach for them! So far, as I’ve been typing, I feel like I’m just cutting to the chase already instead of dragging it out like I usually do haha.

I’ve been picking up crazy, late hours at work AND on school days which is crazy! But I can’t be complaining since I really need the money right now. This sounds crazy embarrassing, but I didn’t have my phone on for a while and I finally paid for unlimited on my own lololol (sounds so simple but I’m still 16 okay).  I also bought a phone case for my phone…I’m trying to remember what I bought earlier than the phone case but I cannot so I guess very pointless stuff haha (food!)

9/22/13

Lately, I’ve extremely busy to the point it makes me feel so stressed out. Since last night, I’ve been depressed. Why is so stressful??! I barely have time to breathe, and after all my hard work, it feels like it was all for nothing. I hate feeling so worthless, ugly, stupid, useless, bothersome, a failure. I have nothing positive to say right now but I wanted to update my blog. I want to look back at this blog one day not looking at empty gaps but words of mine. At least here, I don’t feel so burdened and as if I have to be the best. I want to be in my bed all day crying and I can’t. It’s so annoying. I hate working, I hate school, I hate interacting with people, I hate having to eat, I hate washing my hair, I hate everything. I want to go away for a while and just have a break from everything. I want to sink deep into the sea. I’m so tired of having to act like I’m alright; I’m just really fed up right now.

Red Velvet Ray Gun

I was going to write a review on Teen Top’s new song “Rocking” and also G-Dragon’s “Coup d'état” BUT, I remembered that I was sent a CD by an awesome AWESOME group.

The other day, I created a Nell (넬) station because Pandora finally started putting recognizing Korean artists and Nell is my favorite group. After "Ocean of Light” played, of course I was expecting a different artist’s song to play. Well it ended it up being this song:

I liked it so much, I thumbed it up, searched for it on YouTube, favorited it, commented on the song, then downloaded it (haha sorry I had to). A day later, they inboxed me thanking me for liking their song on Pandora and they would love to send me their CD. Can I just say how awesome that was?? Do you know any artists that personally messages you, offers to send you a CD and for your feedback? People like this who care about their fans, old or new, and sincerely care about their music should be famous and I know one day they will make it there since there so good. Actually, it doesn’t even matter if they get famous. With their positive outlook, they will attract so many fans that will love them.

Other than ‘Building A Better Heart’, ‘End of The World’ is one of my favorites. I equally love all the tracks on this CD except ‘Danger Dolls’ since that style has never been my cup of tea haha.

If you read this post, and like ‘Building A Better Heart’, please listen to their other songs on their channel! And please show them some love and nice comments (and also helpful informative opinions and tips on their music since it can help them become better!~) I actually enjoyed their music and wanted to share it with the people that view my blog time to time. *Send links to your friends. Share share share!!*

I will be going to school tomorrow and I will bring my CD to show my friend. Watch her never return my CD wtfff >.>

I will end this post with pictures I took of the CD etc.. I took pictures with it (yes I’m lame JUDGE ME) but I will most likely not post it since I took it after a long of work fml.

Felt so damn special because it was first class mail hahaha

Also my middle name is Angelia (which I usually go by on the internet) but my username was angellie oh my goodness I will just pretend that extra part of the ‘A’ is a ‘I’ loll.

The front cover of the CD taken on my very girly bed sheet haha.

The back

The inside of the case + the CD ( I really like the design!)

Also I really didn’t really include the name of the band, but I think you know the name by now haha (if not it’s Red Velvet Ray Gun!)

Actually I have a four page assignment that is due tomorrow and I haven't started it so here’s a farewell to my blog again for a while sighh.