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As usual, I was on tumblr this morning (it’s 5:40 AM rn). I get on the 37th page and come along some posts someone posted about very relevant subjects. He is the only boy I probably follow and he’s basically the cutest guy I’ve seen so far in my years of living. I’M BEING SERIOUS. Anyways, I tried so hard not to click on this page because I end up creeping at his pictures and staying on his page for about 2 hours listening to the songs on his playlist over and over (I am doing that at this moment HAHA). Not going to lie, the first time I came along his profile, I just kept being a weirdo and just just ‘omg’ out of breath because he was so cute to me. No, I do not regret acting like a weirdo because as I said before, he is the cutest guy I’ve seen so far in my life so it’s normal to react that way!!! Don’t judge me  -.- …But you know, when I first see someone, I don’t just see their looks, I also see their personality (basically what type of person they are) most of the time. I really do think I didn’t see his personality?? Because I am now realizing how real of  a person is. Me noticing that made me come back to reality in some way. Reading his post THAT ARE SO TRUE, I’m just like, “Wow, I seriously agree with this dude. I have respect for this man for not thinking like every other dumb person in this world.”  Ahhhhh~~~~ This music is just really good too, MORE RESPECT TO HIM FOR HAVING GOOD TASTE IN MUSIC. *Moving on now!!* As I was saying, I felt like it made me come back to reality and I seriously cannot think of how and why. I liked seeing his very mature, attractive face and the pictures with him and his pretty girlfriend. I kept thinking in my head while staring at his pictures “He’s going to have a good future. Something good will come his way sooner than he may think” When I say stuff like that, 99.9% of the time, I’m usually correct. Maybe I feel happy for him??? I really do not know. It’s starting to frustrate me!! D: But whatever, best luck to him~~ I feel very nice. I was very nasty in my last post because I  was annoyed but not going to delete it cause….YOLO ahahah JUST KIDDING. I feel very good though! I all of a sudden have the motivation to sit down and study for my retest that is in 4 days……..HOLY CRAP! I have not looked at the date in 3 days omg 3 days wasted doing absolutely nothing ); . I also want to study Korean soon because I can’t move on to learning a next language until I’m fluent in Korean (and just have to learn new words day by day) but you know what?? I can’t pick up anything, NOT EVEN A TISSUE that has to do anything with learning Korean because I need to study for my retest >.< Omo, thinking of all of this makes me feel overwhelmed but it’s okay, I deserve to feel this way for slacking off. You know, I’m really surprised my mom hasn’t yelled at me for not studying AHAHAHA. I’ve been eating ice cream sandwiches and watching movies for the past couple of days.

Wow just got distracted and blogged for about 20 minutes. HOW LAMEEE. brb, pee time~~ If people read this, they would be like OMG WHAT A FREAKING WEIRDO NOBODY CARES THAT YOU’RE GONNA PEE. Well, you know those people who would like randomly stop talking during your conversation via instant messaging?? And you’re all like WTFF???! Yeah it would’ve been nice of them to tell you that they’ll be away from the computer for a while because they have to pee/poop. At first, I thought it was really gross but nahhhhhhhh. It’s now 6:30 AM. Because I said I felt motivated and my test is in a few days, I will wash the dishes in about 20 minutes and then start studying. SIGHHHH. Sometimes I wish I didn’t screw up so much in the past. There is no possible way to go back in the past and fix all the mistakes I did, so I must keep looking forward. I’m very young (seriously) so I have enough time to make a change in my life so that in the future, everything will be good. THAT IS WHY I NEED TO STUDY SO I CAN PASS THIS TEST LOL. Sort of starting to feel which makes no sense because I ate about 4500 calories worth of food throughout the night SMH

Gonna start my lousy day now. peaaceee ;*

look at my long nail tho~ lolol now leaving