refreshing.

People change. They still have the same characteristics but they are changed. You turned into the poop that comes out my ass. Yep; there is no other way to put that. You are not dead to me because you are very much alive but just a person I can no longer appreciate because there is no reason to. We all make excuses for things sometimes. I even admit that I sometimes make excuses because it’s true. There is no excuse for this situation though. I think by now, anyone and everyone who has talked to me at least once in somewhat depth knows that I prefer people who are blunt and cut to the chase. I’m annoying? Please let me know. I’m irritating you? Please let me know. It’s hilarious how I was your bestfriend for all the years and you still do not ever confront me. Now I realize that I wasn’t your bestfriend, just a person that pestered you.
It’s okay because now you also pester me so now we are both even. Just like you, I will be mute and put others before you. I will not think of you and our memories we shared because it has become irrelevant to me. If this is your definition of being a bestfriend, then I must say you have a sick way of thinking or you’re simply a everyday jokester. I always thought of myself (I also thought of others but barely expressed it since I always talked about myself) but now it’s opposite; you only think of yourself. I will not wish you happiness but I wish you felt the pain I felt trying to make this friendship last. Shout out to my homies who kept it real since day 1 and still are even though I have moved. My friend who told me I was doing too much when I was hyper in class, and told me I was clingy with an ugly guy and went overboard: I appreciate you. I don’t know, I think simple things like that, you should be doing with your friends. Sharing your honest opinions and being there for each other regardless of situations. of course I’m writing  a blog post about this because #1: I can and #2: this person was once someone very important in my life and it’s hilarious how they were so important to me and I wasn’t anything lol and that’s not how I roll so I will sashay away because she’s tragic and just another situation I believe I should not be sweating about.

I learned a lot recently. I’m learning and getting closer to being a happy person. Deleted a lot of numbers in my phone and deleted many people off of social networks. They were people who I tried to socialize with but they treated me like an irrelevant person so it’s now my turn to treat you like they are irrelevant because they are now at this point. Now I’m realizing things like this, I hope to see my posts gradually becoming more positive.

I was gonna post some selfies to this post but my computer is acting crazy so I will just end it here and continue to surf the web~~