I didn't like Beyonce ...but

In the car, I could sing a long to her greatest hits like "Halo" and talk about "every thing in the box to the left!" Being American, you're bound to sing a long to a couple of Beyonce's song but reality was, I wasn't for her. I wasn't a fan nor did I care about the big hype about her. Rumors spread around that she bleached her skin multiple times and do you see her hair? Always in blonde weave/wigs. She was an idol that many girls of color looked up to. How could I think she's right and wonderful when our people are hurting and she's not using her fame to make awareness (didn't say move mountains, just awareness)? I admit there is nothing wrong with coloring your hair/bleaching your skin but she never clarified which it made her whole style questionable....until now Oh yes, I am indeed talking about her new song,Formation. Because I suck and haven't been on Blogger forever, I don't know how to insert a widget link to the song. If you're American and you watched the Super Bowl, you should have heard it. With it being Black History Month, it's a great time to release! Based off my observations and reading other's explanations, the 'X' formation represented Malcom X as well as the outfits representing the Black Panthers and as well as a legend, Michael Jackson. The trap beat a long with some dance moves incorporated like the 'Milly Rock' represented some of Black American culture. The vibe I got from the song was: I love my skin, I love my ethnic background. I love my daughter's curly hair as well our black African noses. You see how successful I am? You can too. I am black, you're black, rock who you are. Don't be ashamed, be happy with who you are and hold it up with pride. My favorite part of the music video had to be the little kid dancing in front of the cops, puts his hands up and the police as well put their hands up. Whether we want to sugar coat or pull excuses out of our ass, police brutality has been real especially on the youth. Innocent children being murdered and there is little awareness made from celebrities. I'm guessing out of fear of their popularity, there wasn't much said and this is why I appreciated Beyonce for that. Even though it was good..it was also bad...and also kind of stupid STUPID??? WHAT?? Well yes I love how for younger crowds they won't think about it that hard but Beyonce is kind of a hypocrite. The back up dancers wore their natural hair but not once did Beyonce be courageous enough to make a statement and show or rock her natural hair. Let me guess...she contoured (which matters if you got lyrics talking about you like 'black' noses)?? And we still can't take back all those bleaching sessions she definitely did do. I'm all for plastic surgery and doing whatever floats your boat to yours body. I'm very prideful in my origins and though I don't care to get anything done, I am secure with my identity enough to do so. I think Beyonce struggled like every one of us did with our identity. White supremacy is real and it has a global affect. Being in the spotlight, I could see how difficult it is to not get so caught up in what other people think of you or what you think is best aesthetically to do for the sake of your career or even your current self-esteem. I get it. I'm extremely understanding and whatever is in the past is in the past (referring to skin bleaching). So how about now? Why couldn't Beyonce rock her natural hair if she was promoting "Black Pride". Being purely honest, I would tell people how mixed I was to dilute my blackness because I was ashamed. Now I say it because it's my ethnicity, nationality and race. 3 different things that explain who I am, the way I act and my culture but Creole...bitchhhhhhhhhhhh really? Creole? When she said that I related and thought, "that totally sounds like 11 year old me trying to dilute my blackness and still feel accepted by non people of color". Beyonce has had enough time to go through that stage of 'finding herself' and going through an identity crisis. She too damn old for that. Even though, we think we know everything about an idol, we don't. I don't know how she was raised but I question it for sure if her sister can rock her afro and be hella pro-black and Beyonce over here claiming shit that is not relevant at all to the "message" she trying to give, am I right? And yes my view of Creole people is going off the first picture of them Google decided to display

And maybe it was just me the song felt centered around her. I definitely don't think the song itself (secluding the MV she has now made private wtf- also make me question her more) had a message for black men and was directed for an audience of young women (emphasize on young okay). A big fan of TriniTrent and he lost me at first opposing against Beyonce so hard but he made total sense so it really make me think harder about her intentions because truth is where was she about 2 or 3 years ago when this was going on. Ferguson? She had a say or no? Exactly. The song feels like it describes her as such a successful person and pretty much saying "i did it and so can you". It reaches one audience and I can understand why she lost everyone else because it wasn't for everyone. I know her fans are going hype and anyone opposes it is crazy but I literally think it was made for them. I was grateful she at least did that and helped guid these girls with undeveloped brains to love themselves. Beyonce never felt the American 'black struggle' as hard as the rest of us but I'll definitely give credit where it's due. Another reason why I'm not that mad is that so many racist ass white people so mad over a song about black people played in the month of black history that they start to use racist slurs. The government can alter all of our history books and make sure the next generations are brainwashed to think how innocent white people are but black people can't have 28 (this year 29) days of self-empowerment and acknowledge accomplishments of a group of colored people that is usually ignored the rest of the year? Make sense..total sense and I was gonna attach some photos to show how butt-hurt people were and the racist backlash but I believe y'all get the jiff and I'm honestly been too busy and keep putting this post as a draft so how about no.