Love/Hate Workout

I think I shared this before but I think I’ll share this again: I’m slightly overweight. It’s not that big of a deal because it’s not noticeable to other people and just to my family and people close to us. My sister’s boyfriend visited us and stayed for about 3 days. We were having a conversation and it did include me saying that I want to go the gym but can’t because I have no transportation. He agreed that I did get a lot bigger than from the last time he saw me. Him telling me that finally made me snap back into reality and take my weight gain issue seriously. I’ve been lazy and slacking off but I shouldn’t have been because I know for a fact if I get any bigger than this, I really won’t like my body more than I didn’t in the first place. Yesterday I tried working out and doing all the helpful workouts I know but after about 20 minutes, I stopped. It had gotten extremely boring and made me wish  I had an exercise buddy. Me and my sister talk about working out together and she always agrees she will definitely work out with me but every time I tell her I’m about to work out, she makes excuses or damn lazy and stay in her bed. I then remembered this Youtuber that I used to watch before to do my workouts in my room. I searched her up and started doing the workout and also without feeling bored (probably cuz she’s talking). I’m feeling so good and proud of myself that I’m finally working out until…….my damn internet lags and the video stops!! If you ever looked at my tweets, 88% of them are about how much I hate at&t u-verse. They have really nice cable and offers to it but the internet is complete crap. Internet is more important than cable in our house so we once did switch over to Verizon Comcast but it' just wasn’t the same so ended up switching back. They supposedly don’t have faster internet but there is a internet that is $20 more but we have to purchase it the next time we pay our bill. Anyways, back to topic; I tried to keep my heart racing and keep moving so my body stays hot but then I have to sit down and blog or watch another video to wait for my workout video to load. Also, I’m watching in 360P!!!! I tried putting it lower to 240P but pointless because it was just as bad. What makes me furious about this is that I had a 720P video open and it’s already fully loaded…..

barely 10 minutes for it to fully load I swear

(click here for YT channel of this video)

waited a good 25 mins.

(click here for YT channel of this video)

I thought it was lagging more on the workout video because it’s longer but it shouldn’t if I pause it and it would be a amount ahead but nooooooo, I wait til it gets like that and it still ends up pausing on me. WHYYYYY. at&t you don’t want me to workout???  Also I added links to the channels of the Youtubers of the videos. Both my favorite. annaleeandjesse I practically watch everyday because I really like watching vlogs and theirs interest me I guess you could say. Dulcinea Hellings has very long workouts that I think benefit me and you could also call it extreme workouts because at the end, you will be seriously dripping so much sweat and be so sore  which I love (weird, right?) because I personally like hardcore workouts and feeling like I did enough cardio to burn off some fat. As you can see, the video is 41 minutes long! 40 minutes are needed in order to actually make a difference in your body (if you get what I’m saying) and I like that the videos are this long so I don’t have to click on 5 different videos that would add up to at least 40 minutes. Now that I wrote a whole freaking blog post, my video should be fully loaded. Probably going to another 40 min video of hers because I feel bad that I practically a long break (I’m not even sweating anymore sigh)

Steve Lim: Why?

Even though I watched the video about it already, I decided to read Xiaxue’s blog post about her house's renovation (happy I did, it was entertaining and informative). She linked to an older post of hers that described her hate for bugs in her house and how to solve it. I don’t know why but from then, I just started to read a lot of her older posts on her blog. She is honestly one of the most funniest and entertaining people alive ok. I came across a blog post talking titled something like: ‘The Most Disgusting Bloggers’. The first person was Steven Lim. I watched the video where she was talking to him on a blind date. Obviously I saw this video (big fan of Xiaxue okay~) but re-watched it to remind myself of how he is like. I honestly thought this was a joke and he was told to do that (give her all these stupid presents and sing retarded) but I guess not??? I wanted to check out his blog and see how it was like. It was trash basically and it might be because it’s older and he hasn’t updated it in years or he’s just tacky. After scrolling, I see this video and the title claims that it’s a music video so I think to myself, “oh…he’s actually a singer? that’s cool. let me check it out”

What the actual fak (*me trying to replace curse words with something less harsh*)

This was the MV.. seriously??

After that, I started looking through his other videos. He is really weird. He makes me feel uncomfortable but I don’t click something to exit because it’s just so funny to notice he is a legit  freaking weirdo.

Other videos that I watched a few seconds of and their top comments:

I actually burst into laughter when reading the first comment on the second video and the second comment on the third video. I somewhat calculated his age and I think my guess is accurate because simple math and his face seems to fit the age I guessed. I started to feel bad for him because of all the negative feedback he got but then my pity slowly faded away because some of the people actually care about him and want him to get help or to grow up (I guess you could say). There must be something wrong with him if he openly posts videos of himself daily doing stuff that a normal person would recommend embarrassing. I don’t even post selcas of myself frequently on any website I visit on a daily basis because I rather save myself from the embarrassment and I don’t have that much confidence. I wish I could have this mans confidence to be honest. Also, how does he handle all the hate he gets? I guess the little compliments he gets here and there, his brain also pities him and switches the number of haters and lovers so his feelings don’t get hurt. I don’t know, he seems like a good person but annoying. My Spanish teacher is someone you would recommend extremely nice but she is massively annoying. Do you know what my Spanish teacher And Steven have in common? People don’t respect them. Sometimes being too nice is not so good. I personally think both of them had an incident that traumatized them and made them this way or something similar to this. In his bio on YouTube, he said something like, 'I will devote my life to entertain you all!’ So I guess he is doing what he said because no matter what is wrong with him, he is entertaining. Wouldn’t you agree he should disable his comments? But then again he wouldn’t be able to view the 5/28657598659 positive comments on his videos. It’s 4:26AM and it might take me an hour or so til I doze off so I will stop giggling about him and watch a Korean movie.

Ps: hopefully he doesn’t see this and wants to sue me *giggles and sha-shays away~~*

좋아해요.. // I like you...

Sometimes I want to talk and talk and talk about my crush. About the little stuff I know about him and how he makes me feel. It makes me so happy but you can’t really talk about that 24/7 with your friends.. I want to be with him. I want to laugh with him. I want share happiness with them. I like everything about him. There was this quote I saw earlier on Tumblr

" I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. Then I saw that you were not perfect and I loved you even more. "

Maybe he may say something like, 'But you don’t even know anything about me’. Even if I did, it’s a 99.9% chance that I will still like you after I find out everything about you. I think I will like you more, actually. I just want to sit next to him and just stare at him with a happy smile and glowing face. People who a crush on somebody can understand and relate to me but the people being crushed on probably can’t understand and there’s a slight chance that they will probably be weirded out by it. Sorry sorry sorry. So sorry if I make you feel like that. People should use the internet more. They would realize this is more normal than they really think it is. So many quotes and people explaining their love for the people they are crushing on even though they don’t know them. I thought I was the only one who feel as if they already know the person and can detect someone’s personality just by looking at them and be correct about it. I know I’m the only one now and it makes me feel relieved. Smiling and thinking a lot tonight. I just really like him. I’m so scared to approach him and give little signs to him that I like him. Nobody wants to be rejected, you know? Sometimes I feel like, ‘screw it. if I get rejected then oh well. just move on with your life angel. it’s life.’ but nobody wants to experience that. You will feel sooooooo horrible hearing the person you like reject you especially because they think you’re ugly or not their style.  I’m thinking about different ways for my friend to send him signs or tell him straight up for him and me be able to still act normal. I want to be by his side so badly. Also, he does look kind of on the lonely side and if you’re a reader of my blog, you know I think of myself as a loner most of the times. So if he feels that way, then I so relate and I just to accompany him. The other day I saw him laugh….It was the best thing I have ever saw in a while. His face looked so cute when he was laughing and it made me feel so happy. I cannot stop thinking about him and you know I’m actually shocked about how much I think about him. I feel quite mind-blown and if I were to express how I feel about that out loud, I would probably keep saying ‘wow’ repeatedly. You think he would say wow too? To know some stranger likes him and thinks about him a lot. I think I would be shocked haha. I don’t know what to do and I wish I knew what to do. I want to confess to him already and I want to him to also like me back but it’s a 50/50 chance and I don’t know if I want to risk myself of embarrassment if that makes sense. Actually I wouldn’t mind if he saw this post. This feels like a better way haha. Him basically reading into my diary with words that reveal all of the truth but are written in a book because it can’t really be expressed out loud. I think that’s why I started blogging. I don’t really have a lot of people to tell about stuff you would put into a diary. For some reason now I feel like crying. Maybe the choice of music I decided to listen to and this subject in general. It’s really bothersome thinking about stuff like this because you just want to win so badly but you can’t. That’s life but you just wish if life would give you a free pass just this once and let you have your way. I think I will get bold and confess to him in some form of way because if I don’t, I may regret not doing so for the rest of my life. Even if I’m rejected, after sobbing for a while I will remind myself everything happens for reason. I think I’m the missing puzzle piece and I want him to realize that. I think this sounds cute haha. A girl who is crazily liking someone from afar and blabbing about it on her blog haha. What if one day I read back on this post and just feel purely embarrassment LOL (PROBABLY).

Laughing right now because I have no classes with him but see him in the hallway and in the lunch room. That’s not why I’m laughing though. I’m laughing because my friend said Friday she was standing behind him going up the stares and saw me covering my mouth basically blushing (I guess you could say that??) and then she started talking about how huge he was and by huge she meant height and his feet… –.- Really? His feet?? The words she said was,'He has huge feet dude!’ LOL. I think it’s cute and really attractive *snaps fingers* I think she’s not really attracted to his hugeness because she’s 4’11 and I’m 5’6 soooo….haha. Also it doesn’t matter if that attracts her or not because I’m the one who likes him…Hm I wonder if he’s attracted to me. I personally don’t think I’m that pretty in the face and also think I could lose a few pounds (and by few I mean 45 lbs) but a lot of boys tell me they think I’m pretty/hot and want to date me. Actually, I’m really shocked finding how many boys liked me this year so far. You think I would like one them and date them, but nope. You can’t really force yourself to like and not like a person. I never get mad or annoyed when someone likes me because they cannot control their heart and that’s fine because I can relate. I also cannot control my heart. I did stop trying to like the boy I like now because I’m too damn scared to confess so it’s pointless but I can’t really control that. All these boys who liked me boosted my confidence slightly, giving me hope that I might not get rejected because maybe I’m not as ugly as I thought I was. Maybe I do have a chance. Maybe him knowing I truly do like him will maybe make him think the same way about me too. I should be going to bed but I don’t want to. I want to sit here listening to music and just think about him.

SHOULD I SHOW HOW I FEEL THROUGH….K-POP? Actually just mixtures of songs I know that pop to my head and probably in Korean (duh) because I study Korean >.>

Not kpop but been severely in love with song since it came out. I think I relate to this song except the parts that talk about interacting…and protecting haha. Click here for English lyrics.

OOOHHHH SHIET, a Throwback! Yes, this song is just….I feel you SHINee oppars.

Also relating to pretty IU except the interacting parts jesus christ and I don’t know about marriage. thinking ahead much .__.

Started listening to a bunch of songs by NELL (my fav artist) and this album and another one specifically and just relating to the words he’s saying. Now thinking about my shit past and myself in general. Yeah……..gonna go to bed now haha

Hair Store Shhhhwag~

Even though school didn’t ware me out as it usually does, I was still extremely happy that it was Friday yesterday (wrote this post on Saturday).

My mom had gotten sick a week after I got better so she had to go to the doctors and she asked me to tag along. After we left the hospital (our doctor’s ‘office’ is in the hospital), my mom wanted some wonton soup so we headed straight for the Chinese restaurant which is in a plaza that also has a hair supply store in it (; I really love hair supply stores. It’s just full of stuff I enjoy looking at and stuff I enjoy buying!

This stuff is like magic in a bottle. The only downside of buying this was it was $15.99 at the hair supply store and was about $8 if purchased at Walgreens or Wal-Mart wtff I feel like I was jipped off, yes!

I purchased this same product about 3 years ago and remembered how much I loved it so I bought it again

My sister moved out recently and took the newest flat iron we have and she lives about 4 hours away now so we had to buy a new one –.-  I don’t really care anymore that she took it and I giggle as I think about it because it wasn’t as great so I’m grateful she took it. The flat iron didn’t have control settings and only a on and off button which was frustrating because the heat setting it was I personally think was too hot for my hair (I have thin hair and most of it is chemically straightened so no need for that much heat on my hair) and I think it was damaging my hair because the plates seemed to be FAKE ceramic. I blamed my sister for it having a different coloring in a part of the plate because she does use gel and other products and thinks it’s okay to flat iron her hair with that stuff in her hair, but no. It also came with a mini flat iron which I used a lot because the back of my hair is short and I could basically see the black ‘ceramic’ falling off in flakes wtfff?

I never used a flat iron that had a swivel cord and oh my goodness, it is the best thing EVER! ahh refreshing feeling while straightening my hair yes! My blow dryer has swivel cord too but I never really blow dry my hair haha.

It is 1” which is a good size but now I’m starting to wish I got a smaller size. My hair is very easy to straighten as I said before because most of it is chemically straightened but my roots are very curly. I’m black and I’m grateful that I can straighten my natural hair (even on low heat) and get it straight so I would like to take advantage of that privilege but can’t really because it’s only my roots that curl like crazy and I can’t seem to reach them properly on my own and maybe it’s because of the size of the flat iron ): BOOOOO. Going to find a friend to straighten my hair for me for now on.

The plates are incredibly nice. The red parts supposedly help your hair not get damaged and actually helps your hair get healthy. I highly doubt that but I don’t care because these are still some pretty good plates! After straightening, my hair gets like super straight (as if it changes the texture of my hair x10) and my hair just looks shiny. You know what? I always tried to curl my hair with my flat irons in the past wasn’t really possible because the iron wouldn’t really move if you get what I’m saying but I was able to curl my hair easily with this one. I never tried to look for a flat iron that says it's high quality because I believe all flat irons would get the job done but nOOOOooO this is incredibly amazing. The only downside to this flat iron is that I think it gets easily dirty on the sides of the plates. When I first used it, I saw little white stuff on the sides but didn’t bother to try to remove it until I decided to take a picture of it and it didn’t really come off in one swipe as you can see –.-

3.20.13

At the moment, I’m writing a paper and actually daring to blog between typing it because I know it won’t take long.

I’m also listening to this song I heard recently and I am enjoying listening to it quite much ^^. Last week I was feeling very sick. Coughing, body aches and constant high fevers. After a while I got a stuffy nose and couldn’t taste anything for the rest of the days I had it. It’s Wednesday and I finally started feeling better on Monday afternoon. I literally jumped off my bed in excitement that I could finally move without aching or feeling like crud because a high fever. There is not much to my life lately except that I got into an argument with my mom. I rarely act rude towards my mom so when I do, I get punished more severe than others. First my internet was taken, then my computer and also I was told I would be attending a new school next year for my behavior but I doubt that (I also pray!!). I have been enjoying my school a lot lately. I was being ‘bullied’ recently now that I am no longer, I feel refreshed. I guess it would be recommended bullying but I personally think I could handle myself if I were to fight these people so therefore it wasn’t but you get what I’m saying. In society, I guess you just sound like a woosy if you call people who annoy/bother and you want to punch badly bullies haha. Back on subject! Doing schoolwork, laughing with friends and admiring that one boy you like. So far I liked 3 boys this year. I no longer like the boy I liked first and don’t really want to explain why because it’s pointless //.\\ The second boy I liked this year, I’m slowly not liking him anymore and because I don’t get to see him anymore! Second semester a lot of people got their schedules changed. Sadly, we still didn’t any classes together we actually both got new classes that made it to the point I’m unable to even see him in the hallway anymore. The third boy I like, I think I always slightly liked him but was too star struck by the second boy to pay much attention to him. I’m actually okay and happy how things turned out and I think this is how it was supposed to turn out. Each day I get closer to showing the third guy that I like him and it’s just very fun and exciting! Of course, I get scared and nervous when I think he caught on but never scared or nervous that if he found out he would say a rude comment which I did think about the second guy I liked (sad, right?) Ahh! I'm enjoying the typical life of a teenage girl which I rarely did. This feeling is incredible. Even though it hurts, I love that I smile and laugh to the point my jaw aches. I wish life could pause at this moment for a while but it wouldn’t so I should get back to my homework. Well, this was an update!! I used a lot of exclamation points like 13 year old white girl but I don’t care!!!!!! Lol

Flower Boy Next Door // 이웃집 꽃미남

Finally blogging about the drama ‘The Flower Boy Next Door’!

Main Characters:

 

Park Shin Hye as Go Dok Mi

Yoon Shi Yoon as Enrique Geum

Go Dok Mi has gone through an incident during high school that left some damage on her. She stays in her small room studio all day and even works there! What may say sound crazy to you is that she enjoys being alone in her room all the time. She explores the world through her television and even works in her room. She follows a daily routine and she somewhat follows it with her neighbor. She has had a crush on a guy and realizes one day that he lives right across from her apartment and strangely, his blinds are always open. One day the neighbor’s brother comes to visit and eventually catches Dok Mi red handed with her binoculars in her hands! If you haven’t guessed already, the neighbor’s brother is Enrique. After a lot commotion because of Enrique accusing Dok Mi of being a creep and making a seen about it, he just realizes what type of person she really is. Enrique’s personality in this drama is very cute and bubbly so when he finds out about Dok Mi being an anti social, he tries to help her get out of her room and explore the world again. She tries to avoid him but eventually realizes that she enjoys his company. I won’t go more descriptive because then I will practically telling the whole storyline and the juicy parts in between. Eventually they fall in love but there are many ups and downs because of them being in love. There are many one-sided love situations in this drama which makes this drama more interesting to watch because it’s not just about two people with a simple story line.

I would rate this drama a 4/5.

This drama was very interesting and I loved the acting! The personality’s the directors (or whoever!) picked for the characters to act was extremely perfect in my opinion. I loved how Enrique was over bubbly and cute and also how Yoon Shi Yoon did a very good job acting that way. I’m used to more serious or cheesy looking roles being played but Enrique’s was neither of those! Just right~ Also Dok Mi’s character was very true (as in someone in real life could probably be that way). They didn’t make her serious through the whole drama and did show times where she did come out her shell. I just really appreciated the acting  and the personalities of the characters to summarize all that jumble that I just said.

I am a big fan of the drama ‘Heartstrings’. I loved the pure cheesiness of it and I just loved the actors. This is me admitting to being a fan of Park Shin Hye >< haha. The OST for this drama was basically perfection also. The songs were good and they all fit the mood of the scenes when they were playing. Park Shin Hye sung that one song that was played the most, “박신혜”. I was shocked and also happy when I saw the MV and she’s the one singing through the microphone. I do not have anything bad to say about this drama. I think it is obvious how much I liked it. The only downfall is that because it is a short drama and really popular, everyone might try to watch it and it may not be the style of drama they like. It’s in between serious and comedy romance. They are funny parts that make you laugh a lot, but there are also parts that are serious and some people do not like that and might find it boring but it shouldn’t be that much to worry about since it is also good, funny scenes. I won’t say this is the best drama I ever saw because I will probably say that about every drama I watch but this was a really good drama that I enjoyed very much! I wish it had at least 30 episodes *o*

I will link two MV’s that were released for FBND OST. If you haven’t seen the drama yet, one of the MVs can act as a preview for you!

너였으면 좋겠어(Wish It Was You)

새까맣게 (Pitch-Black)