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Was going to blog about something else but this seems more important to blog about first.

I am sitting on my bed with an annoying shower cap on my head (deep conditioning) and just thinking about how many friends I lost over the past years.  I just recently ended ties with a person that I thought would be my best friend for many more years to come. I have moved so many times and tried so hard to keep in touch with the friends I had but the friendships always end. No matter how many times I try to call or message/text them, they will never reply or reply within a time period which shows me that I’m not important. People think just because we live far from each other that our friend ship and the duties we have to do to stay friends have changed which is so wrong.

The friend I recently ended ties with seems completely stupid to me since she heard multiple stories from me about my old friends and how we are no longer friends. Me and this friend promised to never change and always be there for each other. What bothers me is this friend acts as if our friendship is her last priority. She hangs out with her other friends, goes to the movies etc. but can’t shoot me one text. This happens over and over with the friends I had to the point I no longer have patience. If you think it’s okay to act as if I’m not important, worthless and not worth your time, just know that I will not have no hesitations in making you feel the same way as you made me feel.

What leaves me flabbergasted is when they get their feelings hurt, they act as if I am the bad guy. As if they only notice what I do to them but not what they do to me. This angers me more because this just shows how self-centered they are. Stop thinking about your feelings but also think about mine please! But the reason this situation is happening in the first place is because they were only thinking about their feelings.  I don’t understand how to make it more obvious than it already is that I know how  long distance friendships ends. Simply by not talking to each other on a daily basis. There are absolutely zero excuses to not be in touch with your friends when there are cellphones, social networks and instant messaging. If one doesn’t work, use the other to tell your friend what is going on. It shouldn’t be a big deal if this person supposedly means a lot to you, right? When situations of you constantly going days/weeks/months without talking to your friend, I do not think you should be shocked when you do not receive a nice, sweet response from that. I see that as an example as the boy who cried wolf. After all those times of him lying, the people in village eventually got tired of believing the boy. People get tired of waiting, being nice, and using sweet talk to a person who simply does not deserve it. Say if you went days without talking to a friend because of important/urgent reasons and they bashed you, do not act offended just because your reason for not talking was important! Simply explain to the friend because they deserve it and probably an apology also! The only reason they are flipping out is because this wasn’t your first time doing something like this.

I JUST REALLY REALLY DISLIKE PEOPLE WHO PLAY A POOR ME ROLE WHEN THEY DON’T AT DESERVE IT ALL. That is when I lose my patience, get pissed off more and bash that person for being a self-centered idiot. Even though people live far away, you can do many things together. Help each other with homework, study together, be there for each other in down times, etc! I am an unliked person, though? As if I have bad luck with friends! I simply give up on that part of my life I guess. Not going to waste time into a friendship if I’m the only one putting effort. tsk.