Age does not define you and unlike most people, I realized that. You should be wise when older but sometimes, it's not that way. Why compare me to another person? We are different people for certain reasons: different thoughts, different perspectives, different dreams/goals etc.
I can die in a luxurious way..is that what I should be grateful for? Everyone is materialistic but to an extent. You desire and appreciate materials whereas I desire and appreciate family (and I do not mean blood-related; create my own family), and being familiar+happy with things. I am once again miserable missing a place where it felt like home just for that short moment.
Nobody wants to be an adult and have that many responsibilities but when you're stuck in a situation you can't get out of until you're an adult, you would crave and dream of moments when you finally get to escape and let your wings spread widly and stretch.
I hope to stop beig misunderstood and I hope for people to stop being wicked. I am not a toy, my life is precious. I will not walk the way you position me to walk because I have a mind of my own so I will walk the path it tells me to go. I am not selfish, i am just older. You expect me to hibernate in this birds nest my whole life like the others but I WILL NOT. Soon I will be able to live my life. Until then, try to endure all the piles of crap being thrown at you. I will not give up like a coward, watch me.
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